A long, arduous journey begins… “My thoughts and ideas were grandiose. I felt I had a special gift to save the world and to somehow counsel abused children… As these thoughts were going through my head, random songs were also being played… I recall feeling a sense of paranoia as well, like people were staring at me as they walked by. It was as if they were accusing me of commiting a crime. I was running on empty, but I could not sit down long enough to enjoy the buffet… There was another major problem. Grace had become my enemy. I hated her more and more with each breath I took in. I hated her with every fiber in my body. I was deceived and a fool for thinking she was my best friend. She had turned on me… When the weekend had ended, there was a nasty storm brewing within me. There was no telling what my future would hold when I returned home. Perhaps that was for the best.”
Praise for Some Dreams Are Worth Keeping
"Bipolar is a condition which is affecting thousands of Americans. Susan Johnson’s book takes you inside the world of bipolar, letting you see what life is really like on the other side of the rainbow." -Robert M. Cawley, Writer, Producer, Director, Professor, College of Southern Nevada
"Susan Johnson’s memoir is a must read for anyone who wants to share the inside life of a bipolar person and her family. She tells the raw story. A definitive book about her roller coaster life in today’s world." -Rena C. Winters, Author of In Lieu of Therapy and Smurfs: The Inside Story of the Little Blue Characters
"Susan’s memoir of living with bipolar disorder is a 'love story,' in my view. First, she learned to love herself, second she then found a soulmate with whom she fell in love and married, and above all she found the love of God through her faith as she worked her way toward stability. There was one more love Susan expressed after she married. It was a child she dreamed of having, but that did not yet exist. She decided not to have children because bipolar is genetic and she wanted to spare a child from a lifetime of the pain she endured. Susan makes images extremely clear with her use of metaphors one of the most powerful weapons in any writer’s arsenal. 'A metaphor acts as a short-cut to meaning,' someone once said. Susan’s well-crafted narrative takes the reader on the journey of someone with 'bipolar manic-depression' (her name for the illness). I was happy she combined the new name for the disease with the original name because it made it quite clear what she has to anyone not familiar the mental illness. 'Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage,' 15th Century philosopher Lao Tzu wrote. Susan’s marriage was a little later than most young women, but she found a man with whom it appears she will defy the odds that 90% of couples where one has bipolar divorce. Her memoir Is 'the key that can unlock someone else’s prison,' Pastor John Hagee once said. I found myself envying Susan because she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when she was young and she had sympathetic parents who accepted mental illness and were not ashamed of it. Finally, Susan explains an aspect of bipolar disorder many may not know. It is a 'mixed state' where depression and mania occur at the same time; although one mood is usually predominant. I could relate because I was in a mixed bipolar state for six years. How a person with bipolar stabilizes is demonstrated by Susan’s example: 'The equation is stress, sleep, exercise, food and a pill,' she wrote. 'When I get stressed, something different happens to me. I just crack. I found it, the missing piece. I have always had it. I just needed to learn how to control it,' she added. I wish I knew that when I was diagnosed with bipolar II in 1993. I highly recommend Susan’s memoir to anyone with or without bipolar disorder. It gives a profound explanation of this insidious disease. A love story? It began with self-love for Susan. Someone once said 'Take all the time you need to heal emotionally. It doesn’t take a day. It takes a lot of little steps to break free of your broken self.' Susan shows us how in her story."